praire fire that wanders about

=(

sigh, nothing's ever really okay

i'm going to read 'on the road' again

in other news im going to new zealand in february

hormones, fucking hormones

i'm the kind of person who shouldn't really be left alone at home for an entire day...

alive

yeeeeeeeeee its happening

tickets are paid for.

im afraid of someone going on the world's loudspeaker and saying "LOL meli. jokes. sry"

now i'm listening to ratatat and trying to study hormones and glands and shit. i skipped my lectures. today was a terrible morning. ended up getting stressed and running late and seeing someone on the train when i just wasnt in the mood for small talk (as opposed to...erm..that other time when i love small talk???) and had a shitload of homework to complete.

then i went to microbiology lab. it wasnt too bad. i loaded DNA into the electrophoresis gel and didnt puncture it or fuck it up :)

somehow got semi-permanent blue marker all over my forehead haha

got 14/15 for my prac quiz. highest mark i think. except its worth maybe 1.4%? :( had another quiz today. noteably harder.

had a massively excited conversation about zelda: ocarina of time on N64 with shane. that was pretty epic. singing the ocarina songs. haha for shame

APEC weekend holla. why not hold APEC in the middle of the country? so at least if they get bombed it isnt in the middle of the city with the highest density of people

idiots

tomorrow going out west to le flat for nintendo and booze

friday chilling/study?

saturday is lauren's birthday and her bday breakfast. win! then ghosts of television that night. win x2

then major exam on monday. ah, yeah lets not talk about that

feeling blueeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee and missing youuuuu

out

pitseleh

not all that keen on glandular fever, thanks

Everybody wants to go to Japan, Everybody, just hold hands

the roof of my mouth is bruised...at the posterior hard palate (ohhh, she's good)

today i studied anatomy. not really much though. i couldn't concentrate or work out why they were saying i had 2 appendixes. fairly certain there's only one.

anyway, after getting over my overly frequent headspins (this disease i have is fucked. nothing hurts but i feel like i'm going to fall over all the time..), i went and got my haircut and bought Kala and hired out "the Edukators". fairly good movie. and the german was easy enough to understand too :)

pretty much they go around to rich people's places and rearrange all their stuff to freak them out. something something /capitalism/ blah blah.

i also liked the chick's haircolour

anyway talked to the other boy who i no longer love. at least i hope i no longer love. so after telling him last time we spoke how i thought he was a pretty shit and unreliable person (okay it wasn't that obvious. but the undertones were present), he asks me to come out with him tonight for math and beers. wierd. please people, CONSISTENCY. ganz nervig!

lauren is at war with her new neighbour-who-isnt-really-her-neighbour. from what i gather its come down to 'who has the sickest, fattest subwoofers'
hahaha it made me laugh alot.

oh and i finally revived elliott smith. i purposely havent listened to him in ages. its time to go back there. reminds me of when a friend of mine recorded and gave me covers to some of those songs. i think they died along with my computer which made me very sad.

llzzzz

How Many How Many

the past month of my life has consisted primarily of:

• flu plague
• current bout of tonsilitis + impending fortnight of antibiotics
• M.I.A - Kala and associated dancing
• missing my friends and getting sad and having pent up information and stories that i have to tell
• missing too many lectures
• considering life amongst amphetamine-fuelled head spins
• dancing and kissing
• unwelcome portraits
• falling in love...as of yesterday
• ridiculous anatomy and microbiology labs and faecal matter

on the whole not great. my immune system is shot, and is basically my body saying a huge 'fuck you whore' to me for being a shit owner

i told my friend today that i am close to being deeply in love with one of his friends. although i tried to do it as casually as possible ("i'd hit that shit...hard")

ah, i fall in and out of love far too easily.

waiting for the my bloody valentine discography to download. its taking too long. i'm waiting for someone to take me on a my bloody valentine date. pretty much just consisting of lying on the floor in the dark listening to loveless on repeat.

feel like sketching with highlighters but my green's run out. and there's really no point to it all if you dont have green